Well as a guy or generally I am not ’emotional’, but yesterday was a historic day and it has been a stressful week and heck it is only Wednesday. Yesterday mark the final culmination of closure on some things in my life that God has used to grow me. He is ultimately in control and proved so yesterday, inspite of my desperate pleas to try to hear and listen to him.
I consider myself “good” with stress that is handle, not get emotional or buy into it and able to compartmentalize it to ‘an’ area of my life, but at the end of my day yesterday it finally boiled over and not only wrecked me emotionally, but wore me out physically. I was able to come through a 2+ year ordeal and put it behind me, I was able to sit down on a plane, listen to the Texas Rangers make history winning their first playoff series in the history of the franchise, listen to Cliff Lee pitch a complete game, rare for a MLB pitcher these days, and at the end of it all I was able to make it home safely to a loving wife and two beautiful kids.
God provides and he allows events that I have had impact my life so strongly over the last several years to put in perspective the things that matter.
- he is Lord and in complete control & knowledge of all things going on and to come
- he will provide and stand and fight my battles even after I have moved on as long as I reconcile they are his to fight and I don’t need to
- the impact and relationship I have on my kids lives and time spent with them for the precious few years they are with me is more important than money, house, possessions, or career-in other words people are the value
- i knew this one, but it is driven home even more – enjoy things now, take an interest now, because much like my visit to New York in April of 2001, I will see the world trade center later, well guess what…I missed it!
thanks for 2 years worth of perspective in two very long days!